Monday, December 15, 2008

_ACT LIKE IT'S XMAS & PUT ME ON YOUR WISHLIST*

LIFE HAS BEEN NOWHERE NEAR ORDINARY LATELY;
SEEMS LIKE THE MAN UPSTAIRS HAS THREW A FEW UNEXPECTED TWISTS& TURNS AT ME AND THE CRAZY THING ABOUT IT IS THAT THEY ARENT BAD. IT'S FUNNY BECAUSE NEVER IN MY LIFE HAVE I BUMPED HEADS WITH AQUARIUS'S AS I HAVE OVER THE PAST MONTH OR SO & WHEN I DO MEET THESE PEOPLE WE MESH AS WELL AS COOKIES & MILK. RECENTLY IVE PICKED UP THE DATING ROUTINE AGAIN AND NOW INSTEAD OF ME LIMITING MYSELF TO BEING LONELY IVE GOT THE BALLS TO GET UP AND PURSUE THE OPPOSITE SEX, THE DOWNSIDE TO THIS IS IM SCARED TO GET CLOSE TO ANYONE. IVE BEEN SINGLE FOR ABOUT 7 MONTHS NOW BUT OUT OF THOSE MONTHS IVE ONLY REALLY BEEN ON MY OWN FOR ABOUT 2 SO IM NOT REALLY LOOKING INTO JUMPING INTO ANYTHING SERIOUS BUT ONCE AGAIN, THE MAN UPSTAIRS HAS BEEN TAKING ME DOWN ALL TYPES OF NEW ROADS. I KNOW LIFE IS EXTREMELY SHORT & TOMORRO ISNT PROMISED SO EVERY SECOND, MINUTE & HOUR SHOULD BE SPENT WISEELY BUT I CANT SEEM TO LOWER THIS GUARD THAT I HAVE UP. IT'S LIKE ONCE I FELL MYSELF STARTING TO GROW FOND OR SOMEONE I EITHER TRY TO KNIT-PICK EVERY FLAW AND EXAGGERATE THEM IN MY HEAD OR TRY TO DO SOMETHING THAT WILL TURN THE OTHER PARTY OFF. I GUESS YOU CAN SAY THAT'S MY EASY WAY OUT OF GOING THRU THAT WHOLE PROCESS ALL OVER AGAIN, IN ALOT OF WAYS WHAT IM AVOIDING ISNT REALLY GOOD BECAUSE ONE DAY I JUST MIGHT GROW UP TO REGRET IT BUT IVE GOTTEN MY HEART BROKEN THREE TIMES IN MY LIFE & I REALLY DONT WANT TO TAKE THE CHANCE OF FEELING THAT EMPTINESS AGAIN. THE FEW PEOPLE I ACTUALLY DO TAKE ADVICE FROM TOLD ME THAT I HAVE THE MIND FRAME OF A TEENAGE BOY WHEN IT COMES TO LOVE & SUCH AND THAT I NEED TO JUST LET MYSELF GO A LITTLE BIT AND LET DESTINY TAKE HER COARSE;
[SHRUGS]. . . ...
IT'S HARD, IM STUBBORN & A BIG ASS JERK BUT NO MATTER HOW MUCH I TRY TO SCREW UP MY FACE THIS [ONE] GOES OUT THEIR WAY TO MAKE ME SMILE AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE. I REALLY HAVENT MET SOMEONE WITH SUCH A BIG HEART IN HEART, LITERALLY. SO THIS IS VERY DIFFERENT FROM WHAT IM USE TO, SOMETIMES I HAVE TO SIT BACK AND LET IT ALL SOAK IN & I STILL WONDER TO MYSELF 'IS THIS SHIT REALLY REAL?'. I GUESS MAYEB I DO NEED TO TAKE THAT ADVANCE & JUST SEE WHERE LIFE TAKES ME. AS MUCH AS I ENJOY HAVING MY WALL UP AND BEING ABLE TO SHUT CERTAIN PEOPLE & FEELINGS OUT, THAT JUST ISNT THE WAY ANYONE SHOULD LIVE THEIR LIVES. FUCKIT. . . . . .


ON ANOTHER NOTE MY WKND WAS FULL OF COLDSTONE ICECREAM

- CAKE BATTER W WHITE CHOCOLATE CHIPS
-RAINBOW SPRINKLES
-GUMMIE BEARS
& STRAWBERRIES.

HANGIN OUT W ASH & HER NEW BABY CHARLES


HE WAS DIGGIN MY SHOE GAME [;


ADMIRING THE SKY

YES, I TOOK THIS PICTURE & IT'S PRICELESS. I DONT THINK IVE EVER SEEN THE SKY LOOK THIS AMAZING. SO GLAD I HAD A DIGI NEAR BY

& OF COURSE SOME POINTLESS SHOPPING; BUT I DEF NEEDED THIS HAND

"WHO THE FUCK JUST BUYS HANDS" LMFAO; SOMEONE IS AN ASSHOLE X=
BUT YEAH, I FOUND MYSELF BUYING POINTLESS LITTLE ACCESSORIES FOR MY ROOM & I CAME ACROSS THIS HAND THAT IVE WANTED FOR THE LONGEST TO PUT ALL MY RINGS ON. NEXT IS THE EARRING HOLDER!

& THAT'S MY LIFE IN A NUTSHELL, THIS WEEK ILL PROBLY BE SUPER BUSY WITH WORKING & ALL THIS XMAS SHOPPING IM GOING TO HAVE TO DO. I FUCKING HATE IT BUT IM LOOKING FORWARD TO SEEING MY LITTLE BROTHERS FACES WHEN THEY OPEN ALL THEIR GIFTS, I COULD REALLY CARELESS WETHER IM GIVEN ANYTHING OR NOT BUT IM PRETTY SURE SOMEONE HAS SOMETHING UP THEIR SLEEVE FOR ME LOL. I KINDA THRU SOME HINTS IM DEBATING ON EITHER A NEW PHONE FOR MY SPRINT LINE, I KINDA WANT THE LG LOTUS I SAW IT IN THE MALL THE OTHER DAY AND FELL IN LOVE,
-GETTING TATT'D UP CAUSE I HAVE THIS SICK ASS IDEA IN MY HEAD X=
-THESE SEXY BTCHS


-OR THIS COLLECTION SINCE IVE BEEN SLACKING WITH MY MAKE-UP LATELY




EITHER ONE OF THEM WILL MAKE ME HAPPY. IVE BEEN A PRETTY GOOD GIRL THIS YEAR SO SANTA BETTER BLESS ME LOL.
ANYWAYS; HIT ME<3

6 comments:

ay0v said...

Aww, destiny will take it's course once you allow it to do so, & I'm sure you'll find that happiness with someone soon girly.

Coldstone sounds so good right now ):

supreme. said...

i love coldstone. <3

Kay said...

awww thats good ur dating again ^_^

&& do u have a portfolio of ur makeup looks?

her. said...

You shouldn't fear love. Heart breaks are inevitable. But, those that break your heart aren't worth you, or the pain - and that's simply a sign that there is someone waiting for you. Someone waiting to live to make you happy.

Having something like that to look forward to is... beautiful.

Good luck!

Sentrell♥ said...

that hand is flyy! =)...what do you use to edit your photos? photoshop? and did you make your header?

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