Monday, September 14, 2009

IM ALWAYS SLACKING WITH THE UPDATES ON MY BLOG, BUT I BARELY GET FEEDBACK WHEN I DO POST SO THAT DOESNT MOTIVATE ME TO LOGG BACK ON. THEN AGAIN IM A TERRIBLE BLOGGER BECAUSE I NEVER COMMENT ANYONE ELSES SHIT WHICH ISNT COOL EITHER LOL.
TODAY I HAVE SOME TIME ON MY HANDS SO I DECIEDED TO WRITE AND FILL THOSE IN WHO BOTHER TO READ OR CARE ABOUT MY POSTS.
WELL TO START OFF WHICH IS THE BIGGEST AND MOST IMPORTANT CHANGE IN MY LIFE ALMOST TWO MONTHS AGO I WENT OUT TO DINNER WITH MY MAN AND FELT REALLY SICK ON THE WAY THERE AND JUST HAD A "HUNCH" SOMETHING WAS UP SO I TOOK A PREGNANCY TEST AND SURE ENOUGH IT CAME BACK POSITIVE. AT FIRST I CRIED CAUSE I WAS OVERWHELMED, THEN I THOUGHT AND THOUGHT ABOUT USING THE ALTERNITIVE METHOD AND I GOT OVER THAT THOUGHT QUICK CAUSE I REFUSE TO BE ONE OF THESE BIRDS WHO SIT IN THE ABORTION CLINIC GETTING THEIR INSIDES SCRAPPED OUT JUST TO GET KNOCKED UP AGAIN. KARMA IS A BITCH AND I NOR ANYONE ELSE SHOULD BE PLAYING THE ROLE OF GOD. FOR YOU TO KILL SOMETHING INSIDE OF YOU THATS LIVING IS JUST FUCKED UP, I DID IT ONCE AND I REFUSE TO GO DOWN THAT PATH AGAIN.

I WAS SO STRESSED OUT BEING ME AND MY BOYFRIEND HAVENT BEEN TOGETHER THAT LONG AND THIS WAS SOMETHING THAT COULD MAKE US OR BREAK US AND EVEN IF THINGS DIDNT WORK OUT BETWEEN US MY CHILD WAS IS GONNA BE LOVED EVERY SECOND OF EVERY MINUTE OF EVERYDAY. PLUS NO MATTER WHAT I HAVE A GOOD ASS MAN, HE MIGHT DO SOME BULLSHIT AND PISS ME OFF HERE AND THERE BUT COMPARED TO THESE OTHER DUDES OUT HERE I GOT LUCKY AND I KNOW HE'LL BE A GOOD ASS FATHER. AND OF COURSE SHIT HAPPENS FOR A REASON THE LAST THING I WANTED WAS A KID, I CANT STAND THOSE LITTLE FUCKS BUT GOD WORKS IN MYSTERIOUS WAYS AND MAYBE THIS IS A WAY OF ME FINALLY GROWING UP AND MAKING CHANGES IVE SLACKED ON FOR SOOO LONG. I WAS MISERABLE FOR A MONTH,
BUT NOW IM HAPPY. EVERYDAY WHEN I LOOK DOWN AT MY BELLY I IMAGINE MYSELF DOING MOMMY SHIT, BDAYS, XMAS, BABY BATHS, DIAPER CHANGES. . . .IM READY FOR IT ALL (=
HERE'S A PICTURE I TOOK NOT TOO LONG AGO


MY BABY GAVE ME TETAS LMAO, IM HAPPY I FILL MY BRAS OUT.
ANYWAYS MORE UPDATES SOON !

14 comments:

thehoustongirl said...

Congrats!!! You're gonna be ok tho :D


if you need to talk about anything; just holla. Its a journey God puts you through, so just be prepared!

Mz.Breezy said...

Congrats momma! You look so pretty preggers. i love your blog i look foward to see something new from you. Keep your head up chica

lipstick cherry said...
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lipstick cherry said...

congrats& god bless you& ur new family =)

maika said...

congrats hunn <3

Julie said...

Your def. Seem like you'll be a good mommy so congrats!! and Your So pretty prego. makes me want a belly! lol

LaLa said...

AWWWE! Mama! I'm so happy for you and thanks for sharing your BLESSING with the world! This truly IS a blessing and don't let anyone tell you different. Enjoy it! Pregnancy is such a beautiful thing and what's to come is so much better then anything this world could have to offer. I support you 110 girl do it! love of love and blessings!

-L

Carlynn said...

i personally dont think you should look down so much on abortion .. you make it seem as if it's an easy decision. Yes, there are other options besdes killing an infant but people have to make choice that best suits them

congrads anyway

YOU LOVELEE. said...

well, i worked at an abortion clinic and i saw how the whole procedure goes, from the ultra sound to dissecting the fetus. like i said ive did it once, but females who had two or more abortions in my opinion are just selfish and dont know the damage theyre doing to their insides in the long run.
to eachs own regardless,
but ive seen it first hand and to really kill something with a heartbeat thats a part of YOU will come back as bad karma. that i promise!





and thanks to everyone else and your support. with my emotions running high it means alot

.* miss thang said...

Congratulations :). I'm not going to be like these other mothers and sugar coat things, trus me it's not going to be easy (physically or emotionally), but it will be worth it. & Nothing can compare to the true unconditional love from your child ♥. You take on pregnancy very nicely, btw. Que dios te bendiga.

Monie said...

Congrats! Your belly is so cute! I hope you have an easy pregnancy and your baby is healthy. Please keep updating. I think your blog is dope and I'd love to keep seeing your photography work. I am also doing that as a little side hustle and your photos give me some ideas of future shoots.

Cynthia.Lee♥ said...

It is a beautiful experience. I remember when my sister was preggo, she was an emotional wreck and would scream at me and her husband and make everyone feel bad. but it was the hormones and the fact that she was eating for two. but it changes you. your not living for you now, you have a precious miracle inside of you. i agree with you 100% and give you kudos for taking responsibility because alot of other females result to abortion which is sad, because you have women out there who are TRYING to have kids and the doctors are busy telling them they wont ever be a mother. But God blessed you sweety, with a joy in yout belly. Wait until you feel him or her kicking and its so funny how they respond to noise. Play music for the baby to. My nephew would kick and you would even see the shape of his foot threw my sisters belly, i was just baffled. Document every moment in this pregnancy it also inspires other pregnant women =)

sincerley, kicknq ass.! :p said...

heeeyyy .! you look very gorgeous in your blogs and it looks like your pregnancy isvery healthy too. :) i totally agree w.what you said abt the abortion clinics andveing stressed out.ive been there.. i was so happy abt my pregnancy(march 09)--unfortunately on april 10.2009 i hadd a miscarriage.i was stressed out and i thought it was my fault because my boyfriend and i was going through alot..we had jst broken up at thee time and it was just soooo much.! bt i dnt know you that well bt im certain tht you'll make a wonderful mom.! ;)---

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